One of the questions I have learned in my over 5 years of couples’ therapy is to inquire, “What is it like to be in your skin right now?” If I ask myself that today I come up with the following answers: sore, grateful, sad, happy, trapped-feeling, joyous, glad, cold, dry, achy, isolated, accomplished, nose-picking, excited, tush-pained, rich, and ready for a 23524315 hour nap. That is the tip of the list. Thank goodness I have an example in Walt Whitman for this experience. He says, in “Song of Myself,”
“Do I contradict myself? Very well, then I contradict myself, I am large, I contain multitudes.”
I feel this often, that I contradict myself. Over and over. How I wish sometimes that I could rest in the black and white. It would feel so much safer. But that is not my experience of myself. I tried and tried for a long time to use words like, “never” and “always,” but have finally realized that those words are rarely helpful or accurate to describe my experience.
I feel glad that I am becoming more ease-full in resting in the shades of gray.
What is it like to be in your skin today?